“It seem to me madness to wake up in the morning and do something other than paint…” – Frank Auerbach
Above is one of the first paintings I ever did. It was painted in a friend’s garage using automotive paint. Despite its simplicity, I decided, on its completion, that I would spend my life painting.
You see, I held the conviction (and still do) that if I gave myself to something – even something I possessed no discernible gift for – if gave it my time, energy and resources, something beautiful would happen, something akin to creation. All I had to do was show up and keep trying.
As Jacob Bronowski said:
“Creation consists of finding unity, finding likenesses, finding pattern…Nature herself is chaos; she is full of infinite variety without order. But if you see her with inner vision, a creative mind (whether poetic…or scientific…) there comes a moment when many different aspects suddenly crystallize in a single unity. You have found a key; you have found a clue; you have found a path which organizes material. You have found what Coleridge called “unity in variety.” That is the moment of creation.”
About a year after the garage painting, I experienced one such moment of creation – a kind of exponential, creative leap forward; from there I began the project I have been working on for the past 16 years.
The project, when finished, will consist of 12 paintings. Each has taken longer than the last, and I am currently working on number 8. Except for Shabbat, I show up each day and keep trying. It is a labour of love, and I happily weave my life around my 3 daily painting sessions.
I do not put photos of the 12 paintings on the online, but anyone who wants to is welcome to come and see them.